Saturday, August 30, 2008

Oh boy...



Aren't these beautiful flowers?  J and S brought them to me today.  At first I thought it was because I am 1 day shy of 37 weeks, tired, grumpy, hungry, blah, blah, blah.  But no.  Here is why, in J's own words...

As my 4-year-old son and I were entering the grocery store we stopped by the flower case to look at our list.  As I was deciding where we needed to go my son, very innocently, asked "Dad, how did mom get pregnant?"  I stared at him in silence for a moment trying to decide what to say.  In a desperate attempt to dodge the question I looked at the flowers and said "Should we get Mom some flowers?" He was sufficiently distracted and ceased his line of questioning, delaying the inevitable "talk".

Oh boy, you know this is going to come up again...I was just hoping it wouldn't be until he was much older!

Friday, August 29, 2008

37.3, 38.2, 39.1...???





I am now 36 weeks 5 days pregnant. If I were to have this baby the same time Emma was born, s/he would be born next Wednesday, and I'd be 37 weeks 3 days. S was born 38 weeks 2 days and A was born 39 weeks 1 day. I have said that my pattern states that this baby will be born at 40 weeks on the nose. My sweet husband doesn't agree. He thinks that it will fall on the average of the 3, which would be 38 weeks 2 days, September 9.
So...let's play a little game, shall we? You guess the date, time, weight, length and sex of the baby. Who ever is closest will win a prize. I can't say when you'll get said prize, or even what it will be...but games are always fun, aren't they?

Ok, here is some info about the others to help you form your opinion.

Emma - 37 weeks 3 days, 7 lbs. 8 oz., 10:35pm (water broke 8 pm, born via c-section for being footling breech).

S - 38 weeks 2 days, 9 lbs. 3 oz., 4:59 am.

A - 39 weeks 1 day, 7 lbs. 15 oz., 12:06 am.



Now, in knitting news.  I know, I've been promising pictures of my finished objects...well, wait no more, here they are!  I have socks and a hat done for baby, socks for A and a sock and a half for S.  His will be finished tonight (thank you Arrested Development!).  I think I may have to do more for A though.  I did a short row heel with hers and I really don't like them.  I don't like how they fit her...they are just funky on her little feet.  Luckily, I have some that I made for S when he was A's age, so she can wear those until I get her other ones done.


Baby socks...those were SO fun and easy to knit.  Why have I not done this before?!?!



Socks for the girl.  Like I said, I don't love them...that darn short row heel.  I love the yarn though.              All Things Heather, Winterberry colorway.  LOVE IT!



The Boy's socks.  I love these.  J's Grandma gifted this yarn to me, Fortissima Sock Yarn, and it is SO fun to knit with!  I've never done a self patterning yarn before and am loving it.  He loves them too (finally! I've knit something for him that he likes!!!)



Cute feet eh?  Yeah, they're nice, but this fall and winter they are going to be very cold.  That is why this knitter needs to get making some socks for herself!  I have lots of great sock yarn, and I've been debating about what I will use...you'll find out soon enough!


Now, in non-knitterly news.  We've had some surgery this last week.  Our kitties.  Yep, it was time, they reached the ripe old age of 4 months and it was time for them to get the old snip-snip.  I am too young to be a grandmother and I really firmly believe in controlling the pet population in the world.  So, we did our part, took them to the vet last Friday and they are slowly healing.  Ok, Sandy (our boy) is fine, he's back to 100%.  His sister, Gracie, on the other hand is struggling.  They didn't send us home with an E-collar for her, so I had to wait until Monday to get her one.  Long story short, they gave us the wrong size (too small) she has a nasty infection, and is on antibiotics.   Not fun.




As my mother-in-law put it, isn't it just the way it goes that the boy is better within a day and it is taking our sweet girl so long to heal??


Speaking of sweet girls...



She was cracking herself up sitting in the baby seat!



She came upstairs this morning telling me she was a cowboy.  She is some kind of cowboy...what a cutie!

Another one!

I have wanted to try a Beco Carrier for ages, now I just might have my chance...or maybe you'll have your chance :)
Win a Beco Butterfly Baby Carrier and Beco Toy Carrier from Along for the Ride.

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Thursday, August 28, 2008

It's always fun when Grandma comes...

Fun for everyone!!  My mother-in-law got in last night and will be in town for a few days.  She's actually here to help her Mom who had surgery yesterday, but stayed the night with us last night.  Right now my kids are LOVING the attention from Grandma and playing pirates and reading books.  It is SO nice!!!

Next week, my Mom will come, so the kids will get to play with Meemaw.

I don't know who it is more fun for, the kids or Mom when Grandma/Meemaw comes ;)

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Thanks!

Thank you all for your love and prayers and vibes and just...love.  I feel it.  You all rock.

On Emma's day, we went to the cemetary and sent her some red and black balloons (for ladybugs).  It really was nice.  We also went to my brothers house and the kids got to play with their cousins and I got to hang out with my sister-in-law, my dearest friend.  It was a nice day and I felt Emma near me all day, so that was good.




In crafting news....I have been knitting up a storm!  I have finished the baby's socks and hat, the girl's socks, and one of the boy's socks.  My goal is for them each to have Mama made socks before babe gets here.  Since I have about a month left, I should be just fine!  I am loving making little socks though.  It takes me 2 days to make a sock, whereas with adult socks, it takes me MONTHS!  This is great!!!

I'm also going to be making myself 2 more pairs of pants (hopefully today) and I will be done sewing for me for a while.  I have 2 dresses to make and mail this week.

Ok, now a couple of quotes from S that have made me laugh this week...

Me: S!  Look at this, this man is the fastest man in the world!
S: Oh, he's as fast as I am??

Gotta love his confidence ;)

The other day, S got to watch Star Wars for the first time.  We only have Episode 1 and 2, so he started with Episode 1 (I really wanted him to start with 4-6, but we make do with what we have).  Anyway, he was watching it in my room, and I was downstairs sewing.  He came running down stairs and said this,

S: MOM! Obi Wan just killed Darth Maul!
Me: I know.
S: When I grow up, I want to be a Jedum Knight just like him.

Now, he isn't the only one that makes me laugh...A was helping me put away the baby clothes the other day and found this shirt.  She insisted on wearing it.  She is just SO stylish (btw, it's a 0-3 month shirt).



Saturday, August 23, 2008

5 Years

I can not believe it has been 5 years since I last held my sweet Emma.  I am not going to write about her last day today, or do a picture montage as I have in the past, if you want to see that, go here.  Today, I am just going to share video of her.  These two videos were taken the week that she died.  One was on Wednesday and the other on Friday.  I always hate that it ends, but I love that I have it.

I miss you Em.  I wonder what you'd be like.  I look forward to the day when I can see you again.  I miss you everyday, and love you more than you will ever know.

Love, Mama.

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Friday, August 22, 2008

A few pictures

Tomorrow is Emma's day. I will (hopefully) have a video of her up tonight or tomorrow morning. Be sure to come back and see how cute and funny she was.

In the mean time, here are some pictures of the flowers J's folks and sister and her husband sent. They are so sweet.



One thing about my in-laws...Emma died at their house, my mother-in-law found her, and it was on their anniversary.  The support they give us and their strength continually amazes and humbles me.  I am truly lucky to have them in my life.  I love you guys.


Now, for a belly picture.  Two things about this picture.  First, I am 35 weeks 5 days in this photo.  Second, I made these pants.  From cutting to finishing, it takes me about an hour to make one pair.  Not too shabby!  In fact, I have fabric to make 3 more pairs today.   They are WONDERFUL and super comfy.  I have another pair that I made, but they are more lounge/pajama pants.  I'll post a picture of them too, but just not today.  These are great maternity pants, and will be great postpartum pants too!




I really wasn't as cranky as this photo looks.  I just wasn't quite ready, but didn't want to have J redo the picture.  We were trying to get the kids to bed.  I always have the best timing when having him take pictures of me :)



Monday, August 18, 2008

This Week

Is not a fun one at my house.  5 years ago this week (Saturday to be exact) Emma died.  I won't be here much.  I'm trying to figure out what to do for her tribute this year.  Typically I do a photo montage set to music, but I might just have J put some video on the computer and share her, living, breathing, HER with you all.  If you're the praying type, pray for us this week.  If you're not the praying type, just send us lots of good vibes.  We can use all we can get.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Bellies and Blueberries

I am now 34 weeks 5 days pregnant.  Check out this belly.





We also went to the Gardener's Market this weekend and got 2 cups of beautiful blueberries.  S and I made these Blueberry Oat bars.  They are FANTASTIC!  If you don't have Agave nectar, honey works too.  Here are some pictures of the kiddos enjoying their bars.



As you can see, Miss Sassy Pants is thouroughly enjoying hers.





Check out the blueberries in Mr. Magoo's teeth there!  He is crazy.



Now for sewing and knitting news!  I have some finished projects! :)

First knitting.  I have made a pair of longies, a diaper soaker and a hat for the babe.  The yarn for the longies and soaker is Pure Wool.  I love it, soft as all get out.  The dye wasn't completely set, so my fingers kept turning blue, but I have given it a nice vinegar bath, so hopefully it won't bleed all over the baby's diapers.  The longies are Sheepy Pants and the soaker is a Pea Patch soaker.  Love the longies pattern, I've used it several times and it is by far my favorite!  Yep, they're tiny, but the baby will be too.



Now for the hat.  I made this same pattern for my niece last year, and it turns out SO cute!  I don't remember the yarn I used.  I got it from a boutique in Salt Lake this summer, I know it's hand dyed by a lady in Salt Lake, I LOVE IT!  I have enough left over to make the babe some socks too.  So sweet.  My model is my preemie Cabbage Patch baby that I got when I was maybe 8?  It's a bit big on her, so I imagine it will fit the baby perfectly at birth.  Luckily my babies have small heads.  I love that they get that from their Dad!  The pattern is Sweet Baby Cap.  I didn't get gauge with this sock yarn, so I went ahead and did the 6 month size.  I still love it though!  I might make one for Miss A, we'll see though!





Pretty sweet, eh?

Now for sewing.  My dear friend, Michelle, asked me to make some shirts for her little girl, Erin to wear to Kindergarten this fall.  Michelle and I met when we were both pregnant, her with Erin, me with Emma.  When Emma died, Michelle was one of the first people to call me.  She was and still is, such a support to me.  She lost a baby too, she gets it.  I have loved watching Erin grow, and see the things Emma would be doing.  So, I happily made Erin some shirts, they turned out so cute.  It was very nice for me to be making them.  Next Saturday, the 23rd, Emma will have been gone for 5 years.  It gave me some peaceful time to think about her, imagine her and talk to her.  I imagine if Emma were still here, she'd be just as sweet and cute as Erin wearing these shirts.  Anyway, here they are.







I am sure that when these make their way to Florida, Michelle will take pictures of her always willing model, and I will be able to post even cuter pictures of them.  They are never as cute on my living room floor as they are on the kiddos.

We're off to Lava Hot Springs, ID this weekend.  So, I have packing, packing, packing, and sewing to do today.  Have a great weekend everyone and I'll see you next week with pictures from our fun trip.

Saturday, August 9, 2008

So much better

After that terrible day, we've had a lot of good ones. I love those two hooligans, even if they do drive me batty :)

So, I'm in a bit of denial that I am as pregnant as I am. I realize that as of tomorrow, I am 34 weeks pregnant. I also realize that if this baby is like Emma, s/he will be here in 3 weeks and 3 days. Considering I've never gone to 40 weeks, this baby will likely be here within the next month. So, to say I have 6 weeks left, is being a bit generous...but I just can't believe I'm already almost done! I have lots to do before this kiddo gets here. I've made a list and it is on the refrigerator, and assignments have been made (J has a lot to do!). However, it all seems so far away. I think it's time to do some hypnobabies scripts to get me in touch with this babe and with my body.

I love to read Stephanie's blog, Adventures in Babywearing.  She is pregnant and due just days before I am.  She is planning her first homebirth, I am planning my 3rd, but we are both having our 4th baby.  She posted a playlist today for her birth, I am loving it!  I actually bought the Yael Naim c.d. today, and I am loving it.  I can see myself bellydancing to it while working this baby down.  What other music do you all love when you're in labor?

I am going to leave you now with a picture of my babes.  It has been really hot and muggy this week (and muggy in Utah is rare!).  So, what better way to cool off than a popcicle in the shade?

Thursday, August 7, 2008

Remember Who They Are

This is my new mantra.  Yesterday was a particularly difficult day.  I don't spank, I don't hit, I don't verbally belittle my children...but I do yell.  Yesterday I yelled a lot.  It didn't matter what they did, it made me angry.  I don't know why, maybe it was the heat, maybe it was the pregnancy, but I think it was me being selfish.  I wanted to do what I wanted to do and Mothering wasn't on that list.

They were just being kids.  They were being really good at being 2 and 4 and I had no patience for it.  Several times yesterday, S told me to be nice.  We were in the back yard last night and they got into the mud.  Normally I would say GREAT!  Get really dirty, then we'll have a shower and get you cleaned up.  However, instead, I went ballistic!  I was SO angry with them for getting dirty.  I put them both in the bath, washed them, and got them out.  When I walked into S's room, he was holding a picture of Jesus that hangs on his door.  He was holding it, sitting on his floor in his towel, and saying "Please help my Mom to be nice.  Please help me".  It broke my heart.  Seriously, I have never felt more guilt in my life.

Immediately, my heart softened and I scooped this sweet 4 year old boy into my arms and we both cried.  I remembered who they are.  They are children.  They are children of God, the ones that have been entrusted to me to raise and to love and to take care of.

So, back to my new mantra - Remember Who They Are - they are children of God.  How would I feel if someone treated them the way I did?  I would be downright angry.

So today, no matter how hot, tired, impatient, and frustrated I am, I will not take it out on them.  They are just too sweet, and too small for too short of time...and we never know how long we'll get them for.



Wednesday, August 6, 2008

I didn't forget

I've just been CRAZY busy over here! This week is World Breastfeeding Week. The month of August is really breastfeeding month also, so there are lots of activities to do...mainly, breastfeeding ;)

To celebrate this great week, I've decided to show some of my favorite breastfeeding photos. Enjoy :)





















Now I'm looking forward to more breastfeeding adventures with this new babe. Happy World Breastfeeding Month!!!

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

A little Knitting...

I have been knitting, the bug has bit me again!  Usually, I don't get into the swing of knitting again until Fall, but this year, I know that there are things that MUST be done before Fall!

I have finished a soaker for the baby and some longies for him/her also.  No pictures yet because the yarn was bleeding (my fingers turned blue when knitting!), so I am setting the dyes as I type.  I have cast on for another pair of longies and hope to have them done by middle of next week.

I have to do socks for the 3 munchkins also before the baby gets here.  I really want to have them all have matching socks :)  All 3 need hats, as does J for this winter.  Also, we are coming up on our 7th anniversary in October.  The traditional gift for this anniversary is wool.  So, I am going to knit this sweater for J.



It's a pretty awesome sweater, and luckily J is small enough that I will make a size small :)  So, I can actually afford this sweater! :D  However, to get it done by October 19, I need to get started on it ASAP!

For me, I want him to buy me yarn (I am not sure what yarn yet) to make this sweater.  I am in LOVE with it!!!



I also need to make a sweater for the babe, and I really want to make a blanket for this one too.  But, I can only do so much, so I doubt that the blanket will get done.  Although, I have some beautiful organic cotton that Val gifted me...that would make such a nice soft blankie for the babe....

Ah, I find I run into this situation every year about this time.  So much I want to knit and only a small amount of time to do it in.  Luckily I will have lots of nursing knitting time, I love knitting with a new babe, they nurse and I knit, and they leave the yarn and needles alone!!!  WAHOO!!!!

Friday, August 1, 2008

Drumroll Please...

After visiting random.org, I have come up with a winner!!!! Are you ready??? Are you sure?? Ok, I won't keep you in suspense. The winner is #34, Amy! Here is her comment:

Oh my goodness - those dresses are just too cute! I would love one in 18 months or 2T for my little princess! Also, I’d love the BrainQuest in the 4-5 year old range.

Thanks so much for hosting such a great giveaway!

You betcha Amy! Head on over to my Etsy shop and see what one you'd like, or if you want, I will just pick out a fabric and surprise you! :)

For those who didn't win, remember, I will do free shipping in my shop. Go to my shop, pick out what you want, order it, don't pay the shipping, but leave me a note in the paypal comments that you got free shipping from the contest!!!

Thanks everyone for playing and visiting my site! I hope you come back again soon to see what's going on here :)

P.S.  I have added the link for my Etsy shop, sorry I didn't have it in there before ;)